Zzzzz…
Thursday, January 15th, 2009Everyone sleeps while I am awake – typical! I will try to catch everyone up on the happenings in our lives (not much to get too excited about, but something to read if you are bored):
On Tuesday I got an hour massage (thanks, Andy, for the Christmas present)! It was very relaxing and enjoyable.
I have still been tutoring every day from around 2-4. I am so glad that Lily is a happy baby, because she is easy for me to take around… I can hold her or just feed her while tutoring and it works out great. Everyone at Borders says “she is the best baby.” They are right.
She is growing so quickly! I can really tell when I am getting her dressed for the day – nothing seems to fit this week although it fit last week. We even moved up to the next size of diapers recently.
Hopefully tomorrow there will be a video clip of Lily on our blog. I am getting our camera/software set up and will experiment tomorrow.
I don’t sleep very much anymore. I stay up late, wake up early – kind of like high school. However, I am never tired. I don’t feel tired at night or in the mornings, ever…. Weird!
I am very happy in life right now. I absolutely love being a mom – it is the best thing in the whole world. And, I love my work (tutoring). I find that working one-on-one with a student is so rewarding and enjoyable. I used to think that I would grow out of tutoring and into a different profession, but I love it so much that maybe I don’t want to. I should be so lucky to find a career that I love, that there seems to be a market for, and that I seem to also have a knack for.
Babies love their dads and need their moms. This is the conclusion that I have come to. Not to say that Lily does not love me, but she definitely loves me differently than she loves Andy (I can already tell and she is only 3 months!) No one can make her laugh and smile like Andy can – not even I. On the flip side, Andy cannot comfort her like I can. We make a good team for this little Pai Pai.
Andy is still enjoying work and seems to be rather good at it. We went to his formal Winter Gala last weekend for all of OSU Federal employees (maybe 300+ in attendance). His department, Marketing, won an award which was nice for all involved. The only downside of his job is 8am-5pm, Monday-Friday. I do get to see him for lunch most days at Borders – I get there for tutoring a bit early and he walks over to visit us/read. He is also still be very disciplined about riding his bikes in the morning before work, something that is very important to him. I try to be as supportive as a can, although I must admit that I try to get him to sleep in with me some mornings… Ironic since we currently aren’t even in the same bed!
From 5am-7am is when I get my power sleep. Andy says his alarm went off 5 different times yesterday because he kept re-setting it to get more sleep. I did not wake up a single time!
Grandma Wanda and Nana Lorna have been very helpful and willing to babysit Lily when we need a hand. Andy is still doing some free-lance work and I am tutoring a little on the weekends, so it is nice to have a few hours where Lily can spend time with the Grandmas. Grandpa also babysat Lily while I got my massage!
Not too much else is new – just enjoying every minute of life right now. I always knew I would love being a mom, and I always wanted to be one. However, I did not realize how much I would enjoy being a stay at home mom… I never envisioned how being a mom and working would really play out… I am so fortunate to be able to spend the days with my daughter during these precious times, not only for my own selfish reason, but also so that I can be the one to facilitate her growth. She is amazing has has already taught me so much. I have really focused on enjoying every minute of my days – not worrying about the past or thinking much about the future. I know I cannot live like this forever, nor do I think I want to – but it is nice to really just take an extended period of time to think about nothing other than the moment you are in.
In the past, I have worked so much and always rushed to the next activity: Be at tutoring at this time, rush to the next appointment, rush to class, back to work, rush here, make it there in time, etc… I have never before lived the way I am living now: wake up slowly with Lily, spend time in bed playing with her, get ready for our day at our own pace, have a minimal number of appointments, never a need to rush. Different and refreshing. Offers many new perspectives.
Everyday I (try to) thank Andy for the opportunity. It is because he is working so hard that I am able to focus all my energy on being Mom.
Life is great. We are happy. I hope you are too.
